I have this really bad habit of getting in a really great groove with posting new blogs… and then BOOM. I stop. I don’t know why I do that to myself. I blog for selfish reasons really. I get all these ideas of things that I would like to write about – things that I would love to explore in my mind – but I don’t do it. So I go all day with these thoughts jumbled up in my head. It usually keeps me from sleeping. If I don’t write my thoughts down, I keep getting distracted from day-to-day activities because of what’s stewing up in my head.
So why do I do this to myself?
No clue. It seems like such an easy fix: JUST FRIGGEN WRITE! Fingers to keys and just go.
But I don’t.
I think many writers fall into this category. We get on a roll of writing and the material comes pouring out. Then we stop. We complain to our friends about how we need to write more. But we don’t. We encourage others to keep up on their writing. Oh the hypocrisy! Then a month goes by and our blogs have been neglected.
I think a big part of it is fear. I’ve written about that before. It’s hard to put yourself out there to complete strangers. I have a hard enough time doing that in real life! I know a lot of my problem right now revolves around finding a job. I feel like my heart strings are getting tugged at. every. single. time. I’ll get a lead, and then nothing happens with it. I follow up and get told that I’m not being considered. I got fed up from hearing that so I finally asked “Can I ask why?” The response, “You’re over-qualified.”
Seriously? You’ve got to be kidding me. If I want to take steps down and have a job that I’m way over-qualified for, then I should be able to do that. It’s obnoxious. I recently had a conversation with a friend who went to a presentation to help dumb down her resume. Yes, DUMB DOWN. It’s highly suggested to make yourself look dumb.
HOW TWISTED IS THAT!?
I worked hard for the experience I have and I’m not supposed to display that proudly?
… and this is why I don’t blog that often. I just want to rip apart this terrible place we live in and just complain. Who really wants to see a blog that’s all whine, whine, whine, whine, whine? I know I wouldn’t.
Back to the point of this: Bad Habits.
I’ve fallen into a bunch of them lately: not updating my blog, getting depressed and sitting around watching TV, not working out, drinking a little too much… With all this negative energy around me, I realized that I’ve become such a negative whiny person. And that’s not me. That is not the kind of person I like to be around.
I’m really trying to make an effort to be more positive. Wish me luck. 🙂